Verse
Somethin’s stoppin’ me
Something should in my mouth
Every time you say things first
I say them back but it doesn’t count
Deep rooted
But I don’t remember why
Your hand on my lap made me shakin’ on the train home, I cried
Chorus
If it’s what I dream I want…
Why can’t I let my self have it…
If it’s what I dream I need
Why can’t I let myself feel it…
If it’s what a dream I want
Why can’t let myself like it…
If it’s what a dream I need
Why am I so scared to keep it…
Verse
You asked if you’re hands were cold
I didn’t notice till you pointed it out
I felt my brain turning folds
Then it was all I could think about
I like your skin
Just not mine
If I can’t let you in, I’m not wasting both of our time
Chorus
If it’s what I dream I want…
Why can’t I let my self have it…
If it’s what I dream I need
Why can’t I let myself feel it…
If it’s what a dream I want
Why can’t I let myself like it…
If it’s what a dream I need
Why am I so scared to keep it…
Bridge
I’m only numb to the touch that’s not meant to cause pain
I don’t recognize the feeling, so it just goes away
Verse
Am I scared of you or am I scared that I’m not
I’m lonely when you’re here, I’m lonely a lot
Can’t tell if I’m giving time or if this time is killing me
Convincing myself you’re lying and you hate me really
Is this how it is, is this who I am
Guilty from a kiss, rejecting your hand
It’s always the same
Pre-Chorus
Why can’t I change… why can’t I change…
Why can’t I change…
Chorus
If it’s what I dream I want…
Why can’t I let my self have it…
If it’s what I dream I need
Why can’t I let myself feel it…
If it’s what a dream I want
Why can’t I let myself like it…
If it’s what a dream I need
Why am I so scared to keep it…
Outro
If it’s what I dream I want
If it’s what I dream I need
If it’s what I dream I want
If it’s what I dream I need